芒果有时说再见
当她搂着你时,你觉得那么安全,闻到的气味又那么香甜。是那种待烤的面包暖暖的香味,是那种她给你让出一角被窝时,和着体温散发的芬芳。
when she is holding you, holding you and you feel safe, is the warm smell of bread before you bake it, is the smell when she makes room for you on her side of the bed still warm with her skin.
你永远不能拥有太多的天空。你可以在天空下睡去,醒来又沉醉。在你忧伤的时候,天空会给你安慰。可是忧伤太多,天空不够。蝴蝶也不够,花儿也不够。大多数美的东西都不够。于是,我们取我们所能取,好好地享用。
You can never have too much sky. You can fall asleep and wake up drunk on sky, and sky can keep you safe when you are sad. Here there is too much sadness and not enough sky. Butterflies too are few and so are flowers and most things that are beautiful. Still, we take what we can get and make the best of it.
我把它写在纸上,然后心里的幽灵就不那么疼了。我把它写下来,芒果有时说再见。她不再用双臂抱住我。她放开了我。
有一天我会把一袋袋的书和纸打进包里。有一天我会对芒果说再见。我强大得她没法永远留住我。有一天我会离开。
朋友和邻居们会说,埃斯佩朗莎怎么了?她带着这么多书和纸去哪里?为什么她要走得那么远?
他们不会知道,我离开是为了回来。为了那些我留在身后的人。为了那些无法出去的人。
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much. I write it down and Mango says goodbye sometimes. She does not hold me with both arms. She sets me free.
One day I will pack my bags of books and paper. One day I will say goodbye to Mango. I am too strong for her to keep me here forever. One day I will go away.
-节选择《芒果街上的小屋》
(美)桑德拉·希斯内罗丝(Cisneros,S.)著,潘帕 译
★一个关于成长,关于在写作中追求现实和精神家园的故事。
★用美丽稚嫩的语言讲述成长,讲述沧桑,讲述生命的美好与不易,讲述年轻的热望和梦想。
“不管喜欢与否,你都是芒果街的”,你迟早要打开这本书。
——毛尖,作家
“这本书所记录的,是从女孩蜕变为女人的过程,是少女时代的最后的一段光阴。它像熟透的芒果一样,饱满多汁,任何轻微的碰撞都会留下印迹。据说译者是个隐世的才子,偶有兴趣,翻译些自己喜欢的文字,谢谢他。”
——张悦然,作家